Friday 27 September 2013

Breaking down the walls

One of the core messages of The Hidden is female empowerment, a subject very close to my heart. When I was writing the novel I was in a bad space. I had become hyper-alert to sexism, misogyny and the repression of a woman's right to live her life in the way she felt best for her. I had become a mother and was expected to 'act' in a certain way. I was applying for jobs and was being treated as a second class citizen because my children were my top priority. I was also supposed to possess a toolbox of stereotypical female attributes and characteristics to make me acceptable in the eyes of society. I tried to play the game but obviously wasn't very successful. 

During this time I stood back and observed the world I was living in, and felt able to judge from my months and months of research into the lives of Muslim women in Egypt during the early 20th century, that despite the fact I was living in a supposed 'western' country that not much was really that different from Huda Shaarawi's time. 

Huda Shaarawi was an Egyptian feminist and Nationalist. She lived from 1879 to 1947 and saw radical change occur in her beloved Al-Qahire. She fought for women's rights in Egypt and refused to accept the roles assigned to her by religion, by tradition, by culture. She was the first Egyptian woman to refuse to veil, tearing off her veil in Cairo, out in public at the train station to the shock and horror of onlookers. She was the head of the Egyptian Feminist Union in Cairo and educated girls on the importance of independence and freedom. 

Harem Years - The Memoirs of an Egyptian Feminist - Huda Shaarawi

Decades later, a lonely mother (me) used the legacy of Ms. Shaarawi and all she stood for, as a spiritual balm to soothe me as I walked through hell. When I say 'hell' I will paint a vague impressionist picture to preserve my privacy, using the words: custody battles, a bullying male, geographic isolation and poverty. 

I was reading feminist writers but something still didn't add up for me. For one, I didn't like the term 'feminist'. It had been hijacked by the women-haters (and many women are actually women-haters) to mean something unattractive, unfeminine. 

It's such a defining term, that caged its subjects, that I grew to hate the word. I feel less strongly about it now, and have reclaimed it for myself. 

Back then I started an erotic small press to challenge the stereotypical view that women were looking for a love-marriage and male wealth, and were only interested in a passive role in life. I published four small prose poetry books of female erotica and set about selling them at literary festivals. The response was great but out came the male voyeurs, perverts and misogynists who wanted to damn me for suggesting that women could live out their sexuality on their own terms. 

I will always want to challenge expected 'norms' in society. Men and women suffer because of tradition, religion and lack of progress. I remember vividly once, as a journalist, interviewing a famous feminist from Israel. She was visiting Australia to give a series of lectures on women's rights around the world. She told me that lack of women's empowerment is tantamount to a country walking on one leg. It's hard to get very far walking on one leg. 

I grew up in an era when all that was expected of me was marriage. I damned that notion at the age of three! I was never a very pleasant little girl. 

Thursday 19 September 2013

Vulnerability..................


It’s roughly four weeks to publication day. My novel The Hidden will then wing its way to my readers, the wonderful people who have either pre-ordered it (thank you, thank you, thank you) or who have won it in my Goodreads Giveway (thank you, thank you, thank you for entering the competition – it will be on its way to you in late October). 

In the weeks leading up to publication I am mentally cowering inside my mind at the altar of my readers. To me, they are EVERYTHING!! I will owe them my life. If this sounds a little dramatic, let me try and explain why it’s not.

There are millions of talented writers out there, and millions of avid readers clamouring to read a good story. Anyone who decides to invest their time in reading my story immediately becomes my hero, because they could so easily choose another writer over me. 

This sounds black and white but it’s a fact. By reading my story, they are entering the world of my mind, they are joining me in a place that’s special to me – the sanctuary of my mind - a place where I seek to understand this world, understand the people in it, and try and untangle all the issues that confuse me about this life. 

My readers might not like what they find there. My story might make them feel uncomfortable, but if the opposite is true and it inspires them and takes them away to a place where they can find some liberation from the day-to-day, we will live this momentary journey together, and become friends forever.

My story The Hidden was written at a time when I was caged by a devastating set of emotional, geographical and financial circumstances which took me to the edge of my strength. Writing The Hidden was an attempt to control the world of my mind when my physical world was disintegrating. 



The Hidden’s three main characters Taha Farouk, Hezba al-Shezira and Aimee Ibrahim are all caged by issues of nationality, the sins of their ancestors and geography. They are all ‘up against it’. They are all looking for answers in a world that doesn’t make sense anymore (1919 Cairo, Egypt when the Nationalist riots were destroying the city of Cairo, Egypt, and in 1940 when the Second World War was threatening to destroy them once again).

Hezba, a Muslim, and daughter of the Sultan of Egypt, was married at the age of 11, but at the age of 17 she takes a lover and joins a terrorist organisation, determined to crush the British control of Egypt. She is caged by her sex; as a woman the physical boundaries of the harem at her palace and by the strict confines of her religion which she chooses to question to the very full extent of her power. She chooses to defy every one of these sets of boundaries and charts the course of life as a free, determined woman, set on living the life she wants for herself.

Aimee Ibrahim, her daughter, feels rootless in a city that offers her no answers. The brutal murder of her husband Azi propels her into a dark and seedy world of terrorism and espionage and changing landscapes. Nothing makes sense.

Taha Farouk’s band of terrorist activists is planning a revolution to end all revolutions. They want a new Egypt, free from the grip of the king and all who serve him. But Farouk is obsessed with the murder of one man, and won't rest until he's scored the ultimate revenge for past wrongs. 

My story was written at a time when I needed to inhabit another world. Every day I stepped through the door to early 20th century Egypt and left my tiny, rented Australian (Melbourne) cottage behind. I left motherhood temporarily behind every day to live with my characters as they moved through the terrifying chain of events that took place in The Hidden.

By living with them, living through them, I was able to deal with my own fear, my own anxiety, my own sense of failure, my own utter devotion to my children, my utter terror at what was happening to me, my own chronic anxiety that I had no future in a society that was corporate, afflicted by consumerism and ownership and which didn't give two shits about creative people like me. I had my own issues of nationality to deal with. I knew I didn't belong. Aimee felt she didn't belong. Hezba didn't want to belong, not to the royalty of her heritage, but to the desert land of the fellahin. That's where she felt most comfortable. 

The Hidden is a tragic story but Aimee, Hezba and Farouk are fighters. They do terrible things and terrible things are done to them, but within them is the essence of goodness. They are ‘real’ fictional characters and they were my friends for a very long time.

Which gets me back to my readers; those people to who I owe a massive debt of gratitude; for taking time for my story, for buying my novel, for connecting with me, for sharing their thoughts, for walking with me in the city of Cairo and in Egypt in 1919 and 1940.

My characters are vulnerable, and they reveal the extent of my own vulnerability. But it’s vulnerability that drives me, and which drives them. The intimate depth of humanity fascinates me, not showiness, not surface stuff, not over-loud proclamations of affluence and elitism. Vulnerability and strength are a mesmerising mix.

Thank you for reading my blog and please, please connect with me on social media any which way you choose – www.jochumas.com - I will answer any writing questions you might have. 

Here’s to you all. In your vulnerability, I hope you find the strength you need.

Warm wishes, 

Jo